September 28: Part One

 I found out I was pregnant with baby #2 on April 30, 2012. Five days after my first child turned one. We were so excited and scared! Two under two?! How will we be able to handle this?

Being pregnant with Aaron brought a lot of worries and stress. It was different than when I was pregnant with Ben. I had spotting which never happened with Ben. I had cramping. I had an ER visit and multiple vaginal ultrasounds in the beginning with Aaron that I had never experienced with Ben. I was scared. I thought I was going to miscarry. Yet, pregnancy progressed and the spotting stopped. I went a whole trimester without any bleeding or concerns, except for watching my blood pressure and weight gain. I was worried about my blood pressure because my OB with Ben prescribed medicine and did urine checks at each appointment; with Aaron, I did urine checks sporadically and wasn't on any meds. With Ben, they did tons of ultrasounds monitoring him and making sure he was developing well. With Aaron, once I stopped bleeding, I had one ultrasound with him. And on the ultrasound they found cysts in his brain, that could be linked to developmental delays. Again I say, being pregnant with Aaron was stressful and I worried for my baby so much. I just wanted him to be ok.

Well, life carried on. I stopped bleeding. Stopped cramping. I thought I was out of the woods. I gave the cyst situation over to God and came to peace with the fact that even if my baby has some sort of mental retardation or delays, I would love him regardless. He is my child. Though I was fearful for his well being, I had to let go and let God take control.

September 28, 2012 I had a 25 week check-up. My husband and I got into a fight and I told him, "Fine. I'll just call J and tell her not to come and you can stay home with Ben and I'll go to the doctor by myself." Praise God that we made up and this did not happen. We check in and we are sitting in the waiting room. I tell Tyler that my back is starting to hurt. I thought it was from our long walk to get there but it continues to ache. I walk back with Tyler and the nurse and she does regular checks on my weight and blood pressure. She asked if I was in any pain and I tell her some. About a 4 on the pain scale. We then go to the room and wait for the doctor to come in. I use the bathroom and when I look, I notice there is blood in my underwear. I become very worried, thinking, oh no, here we go again with the bleeding. I tell Tyler and he says we will tell the doctor. I also am feeling back pain more strongly and I told Tyler, I think I am having contractions. The doctor comes in and I tell him about the bleeding and the back pain. He says he will check me. I am 2 cm dilated already.